Let go of the outcome

Mental Health Mantra 36/365

I sat down at my table today to put brush to water to paper. I was feeling very discombobulated. 

I could hear my mind tell my self that I was stupid to even begin to commit to this 365 days practice, being just in the 5th day of February and number 35 painting, I sensed that this was going to really challenge my Head Self, (think of Headmistress) to encourage me to keep going.

I heard lots of negatives, I heard lots of what's the points and who cares? 

I felt I was stumbling and bumbling through.

Then I remembered the day was Feb 5th, the day when my Grandpa Jules passed away in 1960, 8 years before I came along, I was named after him, His names was Julius. He was a tailor, he was also a sign writer.

Despite never knowing him physically, I have always felt very connected to him because my Mum, his daughter Sheila, kept his energy going, She would tell me funny stories, isms, and things they did together. 

I then heard this in my forebrain.

Let go of the outcome Jules.

I stepped away from my table and went to go something less boring instead, *playing ball with the dogs* and when I returned a few hours later, I saw something in this image. 

Some strange kind of flower seed pods, I picked up my pens and began outlining, ink and dipping pen, and some Signo markers, *lovethem.

I am 'a pen person,' no denying it. I am surrounded. They are abundant in my life. They are always involved somewhere along the way, so sticking with watercolour with no other pen medium is unlikely during my #365creativedays.

I thoroughly enjoyed doing this - it was deeply meditative. It calmed my mind and soothed my soul.

I was pondering as I painted about seeds and how we don't tell the seed off for not doing things quickly or perfect, we go and check on the seed and say 'well done seed for doing your best at reaching the surface.' We are happy to see the seed is growing and moving towards the light. 

It then all came together for me. It's kinda abstract but something in it just says..... 

Let go of the outcome. 

This has other connections to me right now on a personal and professional level. 

Maybe to you too?

Let go of the outcome. 
Let go of attachment. 
Let go and Let flow.

It  is SO IMPORTANT to FEEL right now.

Keep feeling, keep connecting to that intuitive intelligence.

'Art with Heart - Calm your Mind, Soothe your Soul.'