Mental Health Mantra 17/365
It has been a fatiguey day today, tiredness pervades me. This feels familiar, making me feel a tad jittery because I was so incapacitated when in my 20s with Myalgic Encephalomyelitis. I made my way through that tunnel by the time I was 30 but it was a decade's long haul. I find that all that I learnt then, about healing, wellness and holistic health has been the foundation pillar of my journey these past 32 years and I built upon these pillars to support me through my life.
Today as I was finishing off this 17th Mental Health Mantra, the phrase kept coming through "Your light makes a difference." Lorie Ladd on You Tube who I adore, reminds me of this often, especially in these times.
It made me recognise that even feeling fatiguey today I can choose to be light and sit in that space for a while. For me, it was about turning my attention to light, being outside in nature, in the garden, watching the seagulls circle me, we have a crowd of them that hang out in south Liverpool / considering we're really only 4 miles from the River Mersey, they're never that far away.
I realised that my light can make a difference. Even when I feel fatiguey and tired.
I made a lovely lentil shephard's pie early in the day, so that I knew it was ready and I could settle into the day. I played crazy tennis ball games with the girls who just loved it, lots of waggy tails.
In my meditation practice I can beam my light out on to Planet E and beyond, I can channel Reiki healing blessings to all. It only stops when I stop.
I will continue to keep that focus and keep that relaxation meditation practice so that I can send light beams out. We all need that right now. To step back into our bodies and connect to our soul, to raise the light and vibration and send that out to all - that does mean me too. I need this too.
What I know for sure .... is that you don't need to be some meditating guru and sit cross legged, what you need is the commitment to sit. In a chair. On a bed. Inside, outside,. Just a commitment to sit and connect to your breathing. Start there. It really is all that it is.
You will find your light, and yes, it makes a difference.
I was introduced to this quote back by Peter Russell who I met in New Mexico in 2004 on my adventure.
"We are not human beings having a spiritual experience. We are spiritual beings having a human experience."
I loved that when I heard it, made complete sense to me.
My commitment to sit is here.
Sending out oodles of light to you whomever your are, reading this. Trust your intuitive intelligence.
"Art with Heart - Calm your Mind, Soothe your Soul."
It has been a long time since I sat down and wrote a blog. All of this is becoming clearer to me these past two days.
For the past 6 years I have been struggling to find my way to write my 'back to health' story of when I was ill in my 20s with M.E, that debilitating health problem that floored me. I have fleshed out the content, I knew exactly what this would be but... something was holding me back. I ran a few online programmes called ReBalance Me, I began a ReBalance Me Club for people and then I suddenly found myself, slam dunk, right in the middle of something, I felt I was treading through mud. I didn't know what it was.
Then I began to peel back layers and recognised, I was peri menopausal moving into menopause.
My counselling practice sees me supporting many women to rebalance their lives, women who are going through many emotional symptoms, as well as physical (the emotional aren't really talked about).
Fast forward to July 2018, and as I started my 50th year.
Guess what .... I realised that I too am now one of those women.
I am in this phase. I am in the change. I have known this for about 4-5 years and it has steadily got more and more challenging. Worse.
Do I recognise this current Julia? Well, I see snippets of her, but really she's changing.
Then, out on a walk with my Jacks, I realise that I need to truly reconnect with my own ReBalanceMe 7Ways , the one that I wrote many moons ago, and have amended for the last 2. The one that I support and guide other women to look at.
Mmm..... time to listen to my own guidance.
In my research and experience, I hear mostly about physical symptoms of peri and meno, but what isn't discussed much, is the feeling of "change." Self esteem, confidence, desire, low mood, high mood, anxiety, all these hormonal fluctuations that make dealing with all of this, every day, so, so difficult. On top of that we are dealing with the life changes that occur when you're mid to late 40s, through 50s.
My intention now for this space is for you to feel calm, soothed, inspired, less stressed and anxious. I'll share with you my 7 Ways to Wellness that I write about in ReBalanceMe, with the main thread that I am going to be following this too. I want you you take back the reigns and discover your own 7ways toolkit. I'm going to continue my research and talk to people about all of this, ultimately in talking about it with other holistic experts, I will share this via my vlog.