Mental Health Mantra 17/365

It has been a fatiguey day today, tiredness pervades me. This feels familiar, making me feel a tad jittery because I was so incapacitated when in my 20s with Myalgic Encephalomyelitis. I made my way through that tunnel by the time I was 30 but it was a decade's long haul. I find that all that I learnt then, about healing, wellness and holistic health has been the foundation pillar of my journey these past 32 years and I built upon these pillars to support me through my life.

Today as I was finishing off this 17th Mental Health Mantra, the phrase kept coming through "Your light makes a difference."  Lorie Ladd on You Tube who I adore, reminds me of this often, especially in these times.  

It made me recognise that even feeling fatiguey today I can choose to be light and sit in that space for a while. For me, it was about turning my attention to light, being outside in nature, in the garden, watching the seagulls circle me, we have a crowd of them that hang out in south Liverpool / considering we're really only 4 miles from the River Mersey, they're never that far away. 

I realised that my light can make a difference. Even when I feel fatiguey and tired.

I made a lovely lentil shephard's pie early in the day, so that I knew it was ready and I could settle into the day. I played crazy tennis ball games with the girls who just loved it, lots of waggy tails.  

In my meditation practice I can beam my light out on to Planet E and beyond, I can channel Reiki healing blessings to all.    It only stops when I stop. 

I will continue to keep that focus and keep that relaxation meditation practice so that I can send light beams out. We all need that right now.  To step back into our bodies and connect to our soul, to raise the light and vibration and send that out to all  -  that does mean me too.  I need this too.

What I know for sure .... is that you don't need to be some meditating guru and sit cross legged, what you need is the commitment to sit.   In a chair. On a bed.  Inside, outside,.  Just a commitment to sit and connect to your breathing.   Start there. It really is all that it is. 

You will find your light, and yes, it makes a difference.

I was introduced to this quote back by Peter Russell who I met in New Mexico in 2004 on my adventure. 

"We are not human beings having a spiritual experience. We are spiritual beings having a human experience."  

I loved that when I heard it, made complete sense to me.  

My commitment to sit is here.

Sending out oodles of light to you whomever your are, reading this. Trust your intuitive intelligence.

"Art with Heart - Calm your Mind, Soothe your Soul."

Mental Health Mantra 1/365

It's the 1st of January 2021, I decided to step back into the Land of Blog.

For a few reasons. 

With everything going on in 2019/2020 in my own life and also in the country/the world, I have stepped away from social media big time.  I had to focus what energy I had into caring and looking after my husband who was undergoing cancer treatment, the first major op being spinal stabilisation surgery then high dose intensive radiation (I may go deeper into this, but not just yet) I just could not cope with socials as well. I tried for a couple of weeks but I realised it was hugely draining.

I was also seeing seeing something happen that was making me feel really uncomfortable  - censorship.  Maybe it's the Jewish woman in me that fights for human rights and deplores shutting down of voices, I was stunned - I couldn't believe the way people were not permitted to have open discussions, or differing opinions. I was astounded that medical interventions to boost immunity were censored - I mean posts about Vitamin C, Zinc, and Quercetin were zapped out.  Having a honours degree in health and a debilitating viral illness for 9 years in my 20s I am a health investigator, researcher, and healer.  It made me feel very uncomfortable so I stepped away.  I still have my accounts  I pop in here and there, I hadn't been very present these past 15 months.  

I stopped blogging and vlogging a few years ago because it all seemed to be about being on the socials.  I was seeing less reach and it all became so complicated about widgets and coding .... bla bla bla and then I began to watch as accounts were deleted and taken down for holding a conversation about covid, I realised that I had invested 10 years in social media and bam, like that, all my stuff could be gone.  Even if I delete my account, poof, it's gone. 

I hadn't put any time or energy into my own website for a long while, which is held on my own server. I used to write lots on there under various other blogging sites.

In journalling every day, in my daily discussions with myself this morning, I made a pact. I would put effort into my own website and blog. Maybe even stepping up to vlog again or maybe even podcast.   I still have so much going on in my life in a caring capacity and also so much more (maybe I'll share that sometime) that takes all the energy I have in reserves, I have to spend what's left in filling up my own tanks.  

My pact extended a little further, I wanted to raise my vibration by creating every day and I turn back to Muse Mantras - these have been a lifesaver over the last 8 years. In the past 15 months since losing Mum and the grief that followed and Dad with vascular dementia, who's now living in a residential home and I can only visit him through a window (that's for another post), and for the past 9 months looking after my husband with cancer, I have sought so many things to keep me somehow upright and functioning.

Sometimes, I get it right, other times I collapse and cry in a heap at night because I feel I'm failing.  But I am going to give it a whirl and see if I can merge the two... and get to the end of January by posting a Muse Mantra every day.  I am revisiting illustrations that I have in my portfolio and will begin to upcycle them .  Who doesn't love an upcycle, plus it gets me back into the flow.

My intention is that these will help you to calm your mind and soothe your soul.   

Today I am OK - this affirmantra has been a huge focus for me over the past year as I have balanced all the plates in my life. It has been a life saver in the moment of grief, or sadness, or anxiety or despair, where I close my eyes, place my hands over my heart and say to myself and out loud.

TODAY I AM OK.

It soothes me. 
It keeps me in the now moment. 
I let go of fear.

Here it is for you too. 

TODAY I AM OK.

Sending oodles of love your way. 
Keep shining your light and trust your intuitive intelligence.