Mental Health Mantra 3/365
I went to visit my 91 year old Dad today through his bedroom window in the residential home where he is living - I haven't hugged him since March. It was quite an upsetting visit as he was sobbing and crying this morning, part of this is his illness of vascular dementia, but he was also upset to see me outside in the cold all wrapped up and he just couldn't understand why I wasn't allowed inside to sit with him. Pretty much the whole 30 minutes he was crying and sobbing.
'Keep going' I told myself, 'don't collapse and cry with him', I was beginning to feel my voice tremble. I had brought a bag full of goodies I know he likes, fruity shower gel, under arm spray, a big carton of Osem Croutons and pictures of us that his key worker will help to stick into his on going scrapbook I made for him.
I gathered all my energy for 10am on a Sunday morning and tried to talk him through those tears.
The last time I visited him it was only last week, Christmas Day, the visit went well. I think it's all about the set up. Who's with him, which carer, how his day has started. I had made sure they knew I was coming but I didn't call this morning before I left, maybe I should have done. He wasn't in his room, he was in the lounge.
Window visits are tough. No touch, or energy connection.
Driving home I could let it go, I felt shaken and upset, I was thinking about what I needed to affirm and this popped into my forebrain.
I am brave,
yes you are!
I know you need to know it too.
Whatever is facing you in this now moment, take 3 minutes and declare ....
I am BRAVE
Yes you are!
Sending oodles of warmth
Keep shining your light and trust your intuitive intelligence.
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